The fear hits when the date draws closer, alone at a place where I know nobody, have no contact with people I know and I have never been. Is that really a bit too gutsy? Anxiety is "will I be ok?".
Everytime, I go for this kind of trip, I will feel myself at the beginning of the trip - this will be my last because of the fear and anxiety. But everytime I come back, the urge starts all over again. I will forget the fear and anxiety and start another journey. Fearless, not really. But there is a calling within, un-controllable and surface after peaceful life for a while. Well, it forces me to learn over and over again everytime I do it again and again.
Everytime, I go for this kind of trip, I will feel myself at the beginning of the trip - this will be my last because of the fear and anxiety. But everytime I come back, the urge starts all over again. I will forget the fear and anxiety and start another journey. Fearless, not really. But there is a calling within, un-controllable and surface after peaceful life for a while. Well, it forces me to learn over and over again everytime I do it again and again.
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| Jalan Sepilok in Sandakan - Sabah, Feb 2010. |
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